RE: money?

We can all move on from here, I needed rest after so many years of dealing with so many things, violence, sickness, more violence, teen shit etc..... and the amount of lies and slander and jumping to find something wrong with everything I did, never ever looking at all the hard work and the good i was doing for any of you,
its hard not to have anyone there when you are trying to raise kids, by yourself and the other family doing anything they can to upset everything, all the time, its been a great releif, long needed.

moving on also includes all the lies and bull shit stories, stopping, so I don't have to be afraid that if I see any of you and ask for directions on a dance club, it will be turned into a story on how I was talking about having a sex feast, stupidity, and it doesn't matter if no one else new the truth I did, just like dickhead and all his stupid lies to cover his behavior, that of course I was instinctivley supose to know how to deal with.

I supose Brandy wouldn't be the same dog as I knew anyhow.


with sarah and simone, you took on the responsibility the moment you told them what to do and that they did not have to listen to anything i said to them, but thats that, its not that easy raising kids with so many other people having a say all the time, who really know nothing about whats really going on in the house, yes with you I was exhausted beyond, with everything, but there was no excuse for those 2, they pissed me off plenty of times I did not treat them so horrible. Parents get mad at kids, and yes I have had many parents tell me since, stories of them loosing it when they were at rock bottom, you and daniel know the first part of life before dickhead was being violent with you, how I was, but after exhaustion of sarah, violence, the sick Burlington situation, and having to work off sarahs huge debt, while dickheads life was all about himself, hockey, raquetball, basketball, and his nights out with
his business buddies, then making our life a living hell.

its a new life for me, and I dont ever want to have to deal with this sick behavior again, so being a family remembering the good things, the trips, the shopping the beaches etc are what should move to.

glad to hear your magazine is going good, if you ever want me to write nutrition information for it like I did in Grimsby news paper for a while let me know, just tid bits of information that might help, like cod liver oil is good for yeast and building white blood cells to help fight virisus etc.....

anyhow.
mom

the last days of summer.

i am staying in brunaby until we get our place on the 26th.
its like scarbourough.
if everyone was asian.
one of our house mates drives a BMW. he talks on his cell phone a lot. really skinny girls are always hanging around waiting for him. he wants to know whats up? if we need something, hes got it.
i love this place,
i can still smell the ocean.

night vision.

saturday night, VANCOUVER.
there is going to be a photo projection show at strathcona park.
looks amazing,
photographers from all over the world and art in the dusk park.
learn more >> http://nightvisionexhibition.tumblr.com/

tea party design.

Ibarra's Historical Almanac from gingerngo on Vimeo.

custom / creative / book binding .. great shop too.
305 Cambie st VAN BC
www.teapartydesign.com

project grizzly.

just watched this film tonight at 221A.
part of a movie series they are putting on about Canadiana.
this is about the last northern ontario cowboy .. he also has a big bear suit he calls robo-cop.
its a good watch.

everyone loves post.

dear jillian.
i havent settled in Vancouver yet, and so I dont have a proper address to send you so we can begin our corespondents.
the act of writing a letter puts me in an Oscar Wilde type of mood.
lately i have been reading a lot of turn of the century English authors.
it makes me feel romantic and tragic and kind of fragile, but bold with words.
i think you also like the sweet words of proper fantasy.
and,
i couldnt wait for my address to come,
and for you to get the letter, and then for your response.
so i wrote this to you.

sometimes when i am on my break,
smoking my lone/french/artist/image cigarettes i think about pretty things to write to you, on pretty paper, that smells like damsels in this dress.
and then i taste tomatoes and onions.

i will send my address as soon as i get it.
sylvana

the land of milk and honey.

Parksville.
parksville is a retirement community for old hippies and hippie sympathizers.
they come hear to enjoy there last days in the sun and then they die, leaving behind homes full of "old people junk".
the local charity store is filled with another generation.
my sister bought this book series >>>>

>>>>>
this is a new age / hippie / geometric shaped / fantasy series.
and,
it is the most enjoyable read.

ron and hermione forever.

i really . really . really . really love these fan videos.





under 17 love.

childhood preformance.

when i was 13 our family took a vacation to Parksville, a small town right on the coast of Vancouver Island.
there were sand sculptures and mountains and steal drums, and a dairy queen .. we played catch on the beach.
i was going through my over.sized.guess.shirt/tight.long.johns/platform.converse.shoes faze.
my parents were divorced the next year.
13 years later i land on the same beach.
im at my dads house.
his new wife lives in Parksville.
i wonder which beach he sees,
the magic was the beach of 1995.
the story is the beach of 1995 the characters are just different.
my childhood was an act of courage and understanding,
i thought life was like that .. but it isnt.
i guess we end up in our dream no matter how hard we work against it,
lets say the preformance is over.